Since I started a blog, I have always wanted to write a blog about how the year has been, but it always seemed to be a cliché. And yet this year I have realized that maybe a few cliches are good! So people that’s exactly what 2020 has been. We all have done at least 5 things we thought we would never do and yet we liked it. We can find examples of this on many people’s timelines by way of new hashtagged pictures #lockdowncooking. Even if you all did it just to fit into “Put everything on Social Media Society”, a small part of you liked it and there is no shame in admitting to the happiness.
As for me, I want to say my year was shitty but that would be me just trying to fit in. Yes, many bad things happened and they did shake me for some time; but that’s not the case when I look at the bigger picture Yes! My overthinking mind has allowed me to look at the bigger picture! I guess my mind just said, “Jaa Simran, Ji le Apni Zindagi.” By the bigger picture I mean the fact that these bad things showed me many things. In batman language (which seems easier to understand rather than normal English), Not the things we want but the things we need.
I lost a few people this year. I won’t say that I was close to all, but it is more like people having a special place in your heart or in the heart of people you love, and hence it affects you a lot. More than you thought it would. And that is something hard to comprehend. Because that breaks the self-image in some way and the damage is permanent. You have to create a new image for yourself in your own mind, which is way more difficult than creating an image in other people’s minds; simply because you cannot lie to yourself. So you see where I am going with Not the Things That we want but the thing we need. Turns out that I needed to break my self-image. Because it was outdated. In Pokemon terms, I evolved. In a way, I got back my writing powers back because of some sort of loss. And God! It feels good just to write everything that is on top of your mind. It’s a different kind of meditation, which I did not know my mind needed so desperately.
I also learned that this is the moment you have to live because the future is pretty uncertain. So if you feel like doing something, you have to do it as early as possible and not when you think you’ll have time. Though you cannot control most things, that shouldn’t stop you from pursuing what you want. Because, just like I wrote in my last blog, some flowers take time to blossom, you have to be patient with them. You have to dream big and fight for it. Because, letting go of your free will to fight for what you want, would be a real tragedy. And of course, believe that there is magic. Believe that you can summon it. It may take time to make something happen, but believe in magic and it will happen. Not exactly like you want, but most probably better than what you thought.
FINALITY! That is my word of the year. The dictionary meaning of it is the fact or impression of being final and irreversible. But I would love to consider its meaning as impression of being final and irreversible. Because truly, nothing is final in life, one thing no matter how final it seems; always leads to another thing, keeping the tree of life growing. You cannot decide what impact you are going to have on others nor can you decide the depth of that impact. So, choose love, humanity, and forgiveness whenever possible, so there might be a few lesser bad branches on the tree of life. And even if you encounter a few bad branches, you can always have your magic to rely on. Basically, proving nothing is final unless you decide not to pay attention or give up. And that has been the best lesson of 2020.
A Heart-felt world 